sometimes we wait and nothing happens.

two years into my course,i still feel the same, nothings changed, not much. Maybe i'm forcing myself in trying to like the course. Still, it's only 2 more years and besides, i still have no idea as to what i want to do. A million things come to mind when asked what i want to do. there is that one thing... rewind, late 08 early 09, back to a little village surrounded by rice fields in rural cambodia. a weathered face comes to mind,a face carved by hardship that magically breaks into a smile despite everything that has happened. a little old lady, whose only surviving relative is a daughter stricken with AIDS who is struggling to make ends meet. rewind to the old man sleeping beneath a blanket of cardboard in the dust and dirt of Phnom Phen. no one does a thing to help because of their belief in karma. according to them, they deserve to suffer for a sin committed in a supposed previous life. at 2:14am in the morning, all i can think of is my want to do something, anything to give the elderly a better life. long have they been forgotten as children are still "young" and are better "investments" whilst the elderly have experienced life and hence have lived. what happened to dignity? what happened to social justice? maybe, this course, this stupid 4 year course i'm forcing myself through will eventually fund this desire of mine.. who knows. i might surprise myself if i dream big.

tomorrow, 1 month. ohlove

oh love..

now, i know i haven't been blogging much or at all really but i've been a busy little bee trying to get my life in order. the past few months have been a rollercoaster ride of emotions. in chronological order

- i met my niece for the very first time. she is, for those of you that don't know, singlehandedly one of the most beautiful beings on earth. so much so that i won't be posting any photos because the web is filled with scary people.

- i fell in love with my family in perth all over again. i spent an incredible 5 days with my uncles, aunts, cousins and my granny. yeah, she couldn't remember me sometimes, but i know she still loves me regardless.. i spent more time then i ever have with my cousin em and her hubby mike, and it was just so good to reconnect. unfortunately i didn't get to spend as much time with leish as i would have liked to.. and i didn't get to see james.. at all :(

or dan for that matter.

the beautiful yanchep lagoon. roadtrip with my uncle richard

- a certain boy and i are "official", it has been an incredible 5 years in the making and he still amazes me, which is no simple task because i get distracted and i'm so easily bored.. *i know, typical of my generation, constantly needing to be entertained* more to come on this later. maybe.

master.b & miss.i

-i've been through a extreme rough patch with my walk with God. being hurt by certain people at church really made me question a lot of things and i began to take several steps back from everything to do with christianity bringing me to an all new spiritual low. Of late, things have begun to change and God has reached out to me and revealed his amazing amazing heart to me despite my circumstances and my doubting and everything that went on. ah the mercies and grace of a wonderful saviour is astounding.

*capital letters are over-rated.. seriously.

cross my heart!

i will blog.... soon, i promise!

i'm not even crossing my fingers.. or toes.

in the meanwhile, here is a photo of a shkirt i made.

it can be worn as a high waisted skirt or a top!

soon i will make a skress.

the information age

i think.. Maybe, i can now blog through my phone.. Splendid!

Testing 1 2

---- Sent from my 3 mobile

ohmaiohten

i have no new years resolutions.. instead.. i bring eXtra baggage in the form of a neuroscience exam. however, its all so very very abstract ( well i think so anyway ). using your brain to study, think and memorize information about the brain

is mind boggling. somewhere.. my brain has reached it's maximum capacity with all this nonsense.... a new years entry is coming soon. in the mean time.. i leave you with the anatomy of the heart. as complicated as the brain. but much less abstract... and what i had for brekky this morning... because sharing, is caring.

done on a wacom bamboo.. i like bamboo. its not only nice and slender and green. its also very very environmentally friendly.

muesli with all sorts of delish things like dried berries and cherries and yoghurt flakes on a bed of yoghurt and honey...

WITH a cherry on the top (halved, but a cherry nonetheless)

what i've been up to...

merry belated christmas to all! and an early new years... i probably won't be writing before then. Maybe! I just finished uploading a whole heap. I've been busy baking and sewing and have come up with 2 items of clothing and a whole bunch of
cookie. lots and lots of things reallllly. Also.. i DO have to do a re-sit sometime in january so i will be a busy little bee until then.. but for now.. here are some of the adventures i've been up to.

little creature on brunswick :delish

hehe hey sam.. nice jug

success!! -fully retarded

ah assassin's creed II

mollases cookies

and now we learn to breathe once more

"its over! its well and truly over!" i exclaimed happily over the phone. i left out the bits about the fact that i will probably have to do a resit.. but i don't care too much. i'm free to bask in the sun, and take pretty pretty pictures, and bake and perhaps if i'm reallly good, i may just exercise. also, my beautiful niece has arrived. this makes me extremely extremely happy and excited... the "kick your feet with excitement" sort of happiness.

cardi beads& shoes: opshop

top: one piece swimsuit from grade 4

jeans: jay jays

its all so exciting and terrifying

exams signify the coming of a holiday season and the end of my mental stability.. i kid, sort of.

ah summer

today i'm sitting in the lounge with the doors to the deck open and the smell of jasmine wafting in through the large timber frames. There's a slight breeze coming thorough and the sky has turned into its lovely purple haze and i sit back and wish i didn't have to study for an exam and i didn't have to go in to uni tomorrow and i could just sit on the deck and play with the silly bounding heap outside otherwise known as Ruby the basset. I have plenty of things to write about.. but i haven't had much time to sit and recollect my thoughts or go out the the field down the road and lie down on the cricket pitch and ponder... I also need to remind myself to meet up with clara and ali cause i haven't had a good sit down with these ladies in a fair while.. and i do miss them so..anyway it's back to work and it's another sunny day tomorrow!

bring on the picnic baskets and gingham rugs

p.s i love you