i'm back from a wonderful weekend getaway with the most wonderful bunch of people ever. i've been so busy with everything else that i've sort of drifted away from so many people that i forget how much i miss my friends and why i became friends with them in the first place. ALSO, i'm starting to realise that i'm doing alot of things to make other people happy but it just absolutely kills me [perhaps this explains the over exhaustion where sleep doesn't come easy and when i do i'm dead to the world ]. for now, despite everything good that has happened it feels like my world is crumbling a bit, but worry not, the good bits are kinda duct taping my whole world together for now. sometimes i really just wish God didn't give us free choice and he didn't give us the emotions to care wether or not we had free choice. it would make things so much easier, sometimes i think that people aren't thinking when they say that God gave us free choice because he loved us. If God just made it so that we did everything right we wouldn't have been kicked out of heaven. even if we were, we'd always do the right thing, thus making it impossible for anyone to go to hell.. this whole faith thing. WHY does it have to be so confusing? i have so many unanswered questions, i don't want textbook answers, they don't make sense. {rant off}
this old man was at the top of the wat in siem reap
he was just waiting and waiting for the sunset but his spot got stolen when he got up hence he missed seeing the sun vanish after which it was so very dark
sometimes it feels like i'm waiting for something spectacular to happen but in doing what someone else wants me to, i'll miss the best bits of my life.
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my computer is annoying! i don't know if it published my comment!
so i shall publish it again because i so like to be published cuz im narcissistic like that.
anywayy i was saying!
DOUBT is annoying isnt it!! (and was being so proud of me using intertext - btw this was all funnier the first time around sigh lol)
also i was saying, that i know im prob not in position to tell you what to do!
but one thing i do know is that if we choose to ignore our perplexities and get ourselves to be quiet enough and reach a place in proper worship of God then our confuzzled minds will forget what we were worrying about in the first place.
truth.
if only i wasnt so lazy.
LUVYA!
woman, i know you got a 99.1 enter and all but do you HAVE to use such big words.. ahhaha oh wait, maybe i'm just uber tired. i think when all is said and done. worship just bring me back. it makes the most sense out of anything.
aww :)
hi shen. love the new blog btw. my blog still had your old hyphen shen one haha. im now updated!
oh hi tim! ahah
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